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May 27, 2005

look!
in the sky
way up high
what is that?
in that hat?
it's a bird!
it's a plane!
WHAT THE FUCK!
YOU'RE INSANE!
yes, a bird
it has wings
wings with feathers, without strings
and it sings!
flaps it's wings!
flys around, and without springs!
and a plane!
yes a plane...
made of metal, and brand name
no more singing
no more flapping
all the people, sitting, napping
time for me...
time for you...
things we really, need to do
don't know when
don't know why
but there's something in the sky
look up there!
what is that!
oh my god - no not that!
it's a sign!
"you're gonna die!"
no i'm not, but nice try
maybe someday
maybe oneday
not today though, this is why
i'm alive
energized!
hooked on phonics, hypnotized
do you see?
what i be?
do you know just what to plea?
final answer?
just a thought?
think outloud? or not a lot?
what the hell!
what's that smell!
rotten apples? hard to tell!
look at me!
look right now!
tell me what! and why! and how!
what you see?
why you saw?
how you felt when you found flaw?
what is wrong?
with this song?
does it flow or is it gone?
do you feel?
what i feel?
was i too late, did it heal?
i can't tell!
if it fell?
on it's way up, back from hell!
tell me why!
you're a spy!
look, no really, i'm a nice guy!
no more threats
no more pets,
what's with pets and then with threats?
did you say!
hey today!
imma go see what to play!
with that thing
with that ring
you and it, you are matching!
i don't know!
where's the flow?
where the hell did it all go?
type to fast?
come in last?
what you mean you can't read fast?
do i jest?
at my best?
come and see and pass the test
in the past?
what was last?
was the future, what a gast!
when you think
and you feel
what is wrong and what is ill
so you start
and you cart
all that stuff that you empart
all around!
what's that sound!
it's a bomb! down to the ground!
what you mean?
you have seen?
all the things that still are green?
even that?
it's a cat!
dyed with Jello - low in fat!
come and see!
dance with me!
round in circles, lots of glee!
don't know why?
don't know when?
that's ok, it'll be again...
when it was
just because
what's it do? that's what it does!
and before?
wait, but when?
did you ask this once again?
i don't get it
why you sweat it
what the hell, just don't regret it
tell you what
hey! nice butt
look at me, i the'd the what!
what to say?
do you play?
yes i do, but not today!
do you swim?
sure can tim
that's good, now go get slim
what you say?
i'm over weight?
in your dreams, guess it's too late
do you see stars?
do you drive cars?
when you sleep are you on mars?
maybe now?
when you're here
you're an echo to a dear
that you love
that you shove
all emotions are above!
what i see?
what is now?
i don't know, it's gone somehow
do you know
what i know?
are you sure you want to go?
when you stay?
far away?
do you think it's good today?
i will die?
no, you lie!
fall from buildings and i fly!
not today!
not this way!
call me master, and lets play!
look at me!
in my eye
what the hell you try to try?
when you hide?
swallow pride?
can you stand to be denied?
do you know
where to go
when the answers do now show
do you see
woh is me
sometimes thing just cannot be
when you want
what you cant
have for breakfast, so you flaunt
and you taunt
with that want
pretend you have it, what a stunt
do you think
that it worked?
are you that dumb or obserd?
do you feel?
if you kneel?
all the answers shall reveal?
look! the time!
it's not mine!
no more things within this rhyme
that's a no!
far too slow!
that is it and so i go!

May 20, 2005

Well, there have been no donations yet, which is good 'cause i failed to mention that i will be making a donations section so that people know you donated. I will include the name of the donator, the amount of donation (total), and the number of donations made. This will only apply when total donations reach over $5 for that person, and i will only put it up if you want me to. Please email me at kain.mcbride@sympatico.ca when you make a donation and include the name you want to be listed as, along with a comment if you want one to be posted next to your name. Otherwise it will say "no comments" or something like that.

Anyway, that's it. I won't include your email address as i don't want you to get spammed, but if you want me to include your email address let me know.

Kain McBride

May 19, 2005

I would like to say that i've been doing this for a long time, and i've been enjoying it... unfortunately, i can't really afford it... not that it costs me anything, other than time, just that i don't have any money... lol... anyway, i'm going to keep doing this as much as i can, and i hope that you are enjoying it... :) i don't get a lot of comments anymore, i use to with the old system and after it disapeared i kinda had every stop commenting :( i wish they woudl continue to comment... please comment... anyway...

what's new...

ok, so i just set up the whole donation thing. If you don't like it, and think that it's wrong that i would like to have some money, since i'm flat broke, more so than you could even comprehend, then...

Fuck you... get the fuck off my site... if i catch your ass back here imma slap you so fuckin hard that your head'll spin at least 360...

Now, that's not to say that if you're not going to donate, i don't want you to be here... that's just to say that if you don't think i deserve it, then i don't want you here. This is something that i set up because i have 0 cash, and need some money. I know that some people who have read my poems think that they are worth it, so maybe some of you will actually donate some money. I don't really care how much, i'm not concerned with that. The donate "other" button and the "make a donation' buttons at the bottom of every post allow you to enter a custom amount of money to donate. Other than that, i have a donate 5, donate 10, donate 20, donate 50, and donate 100. I tried to set up a 'donate 1,000,000' link, but paypal wouldn't let me since they can't back that as easily. which is fine, it was just a joke anyway. Like anyone would do that... a good dream, but until it happens, not somethingg that i'm expecting. Apparently, paypal will only let me have up to a donate $10,000 USD link. if, for some reason, you wish to donate $10,000 USD, i would be extreemly happy, and would probably have a heart attack... well, maybe not a heart attack, but i would be gasping for air, trying to get a grip on reality and trying to wake up. Although, yeah. :) not the point.

Enjoy your stay







May 13, 2005

(kind of happy, kind of sad... be forwarned... this will probably dampen your day... although, if you look at it differently... it might brighten your day... and some of it will make you smile either way... unless you're a heartless prick... this is based on true events...)


i been away
and it's been so long
but i'm here today
'n' i wrote this song
but i don't know why
you can feel so bad
'n' you sat 'n' you cry
'n' you got so mad
i was goin somewhere
i was not here then
and the times we share
all the things were when
we could, sit under the stars
'n' look up so high
we could, look out past mars
way up, in the sky
but when i'm there and you know
theres not somethin wrong
but you, still wanna go
when i'm back, so long
but i, don't wanna lose you
so i try so hard
and i, don't think i knew you
'n' i bought this card
it says...

hey litttle baby
i missed you so much
of course i missed you
you are like my crutch
i... fall back, you catch me
i... don't know what's wrong
maybe there's somethin deeper
in this song...

i signed it: love me
and sent it to you...
i waited long nights
for it to get through...
maybe it was bad
to try this way...
you thought i didn't care
for more than one day...
and then it got there
and you felt it true...
you understood that i care
so much about you...
and no one understands
what has gone wrong...
there's, somethin in you
that makes me so strong...
i do not understand
exactly why...
maybe in the nights
when i still cry...
i don't know what has happened
and i don't know when...
maybe you can tell me
or we should be friends...
'cause friends they last forever
and i, would never let have to let go...
the things that part us
they would, never have to show...
but then i realize
that could not be...
theres, to much there
to much, inside of me...
friends they are forever
but that doesn't mean...
anything else isn't
just hasn't been seen...
you think you know me
but i, just can't tell...
there are, things i hide
'n' i do it so well...
maybe sometime
when we're all alone...
maybe then those things
they could be shown...
do you ever wonder
what went wrong...
somewhere back in time
before, light was shawn...
what was it that happend
what was way back then...
in the beginning when we
weren't yet friends...
i don't know why the things
i feel right now...
don't make no sence inside
or feel or how...
maybe together
we can understand...
maybe apart we'd have to
make a stand...
against the things that
drove us apart...
against the things that never
hit the mark...
so i went out
i got another card...
one that could say it
finding it was hard...
it said:

hey little baby
do you understand...
all the things i feel
when i'm mad...
the things that hold us
deep inside their hands...
the things are hidden
all across the lands...
hey pretty girl
do you feel the part...
hey pretty woman
you're inside my heart...

i think i picked it
'cause it felt so right...
i knew it felt good
all through the night...
i signed it:

hey little baby
hope you understand...
'n' maybe someday
i can be your man...
- love, me

put it in the mail
and sent it off...
don't think you got it
guess that it was lost...
i really hate that
how it, never works out...
i never understand
the things i feel about...
but maybe someday
when i look real deep...
maybe some night
when i cannot sleep...
i'll think about it
i'll understand...
but, until that day
i can't take your hand...
i don't know what went wrong
i cannot see...
the things that hurt so bad
inside of me...
maybe someday when it
feels so right...
i'll hold you baby,
all... through the night...
until that day
i don't know what will be...
what will have changed
what the future will see...
sometimes it's crystal
and it feels so right...
sometimes it hazes again
before the night...
i went out again,
got another card...
the last one i sent,
i guess i tried too hard...
this one was simple,
but it was still so nice...
second never made it,
but this was still trice...
it said:

hey little lady
do you feel this way...
do you understand
what i feel each day
the things inside me
i don't understand...
but maybe someday
i can take your hand...


it was short,
but made so much sence...
although i don't know
if it was penence...
the last one didn't make it
and i felt so bad...
i signed it:

i miss you baby
hope you understand...
- love: me...


i looked around for you
but did not find...
the you, when i went
the you, i left behind...
then there you were and
it felt so good...
when, i did see you
it felt like it should...
i surpressed my feelings
i looked in your eyes...
tilted my head
didn't show surprise...
i said:

hey pretty baby
i know it's been so long...
how have you been
were you ok when i was gone...


i kept a focus
deep inside your eyes
watched them lower
watched what did demise...
you said:

hey there mister
yes it's been so long...
i hate to tell you
that you're not the one...


my head lowered
i was so damn sad...
all that i understood
all that i had...
just disapeared
and it was gone so fast...
i don't know why some things
they just can't last...
i titled my head
knew not what to say...
i thought a second
bout what it was that way...
i said:

alright baby
guess i understand...
the things inside you
fell out of my hand...
and maybe someday
there'll be someone else...
someone just like you
who feels somethin' else...
i'm not mad at you
but i hurt so much...
sometimes there's things
that i just can't touch..

i went home and i felt
so damn sad...
so much had happened,
it was really bad...
i walked into the door
and then i saw...
right there on the floor
there was a card...

Hey there mister
you've been gone so long...
i hate to say this
but i met someone...
they're not like you
but they're so damn nice...
i'm really sorry,
but i've paid the price...

my eyes were watered
they were full of tears...
couldn't read the bottom
it wasn't clear...
i put it down
and i walked away...
went to my bedroom
grabbed the phone on the way
i almost called you
'cause that's what we did...
when somethin hurt us
and, this sure did...
then remembered what had
just gone on...
i put the phone down
my bed, i laid on...
i tried to forget
everything before...
i fell asleep
and opened another door...
inside i found you
and you understood...
i wrapped my arms around you
where you stood...
at least in dream land
you i still had...
at least in dream land
things they weren't so bad...
when i woke up
i gave you a call...
some guy answered
where i stood, the phone did fall...
i had forgotten about
what went wrong...
i don't really understand
why this went on...
maybe someday
i will understand...
maybe somehow
maybe in this land...
i went to the store
got another card...
this one was harder
and i looked so hard...

Hey pretty lady
i don't understand...
the cards you hid
and they were in your hand...
maybe someday when things are right...
maybe someday, or at least some night...
i'll have a vision,
it will become clear...
right now the end,
feels so damn near...
i hold on,
i will never let go...
i realize
there's always tomorrow...
i hope you're happy
hope this guy works out...
but if he hurts you
imma lay him out...
no one ever said
it'd be this way...
i can never
say that its okay...
i don't want you to feel
that you've done wrong...
just keep it real
and, know that i'm strong...

i signed it

keep yourself safe
and always take care...
if you need me just call
and i will be there...
the things inside me
were beaten down...
some things were hidden
but much has been found...
- love: me...

maybe someday
i will understand...
or maybe someday
i will leave this land...
it doesn't matter
some things just don't change...
sometimes what happens
it just feels so strange...
i really miss you
but i hope you're fine...
i think about you,
yes, all the time...
but i'm lettin go
and i'll be alright...
try not to feel bad,
this was in sight...
i should have held you
and always kept you close...
the next day i got 3 letters
and i, almost...
fell on over and,
hit the floor...
"return to sender"
but the, seals were tore...
at least you read them
or at least would seem...
i reread them to see
what you had seen...
at the bottom of one
you had wrote...

please forgive me
i just don't know...

i cried again,
guess i'm just not strong...
you were the one
that helped me last so long...
but then i found strength
when i read...

i love you baby,
trust me, it's not dead...
something's wrong though
i don't understand...
i wish i did,
i would then take your hand...
but now i'm empty,
and i just don't know...
i'm really sorry
but i have to go...

i went and laid down
went right back to sleep...
at least in dream land
i don't have to weap...
'cause there i have you
and that will not change...
sometimes life is just
so damn strange...
i really miss you
hope that you do know...
but i'm still happy
and i have to go...
know that i'm okay,
and that i'm fine...
know i loved you,
but your hearts not mine...
i understand,
but i don't feel this way...
i just wish
that you could stay...
maybe someday
whem i'm all alone...
you will call me sometime
on my phone...
and i will smile again
feel so good...
things will be again
just as they should...
hope you're happy
and you're doin okay...
i signed this letter
and sent it today...
- Love: me...